I have been an avid dreamer my entire life. I’ve always been creative, super dramatic and a little artsy. Growing up, I wanted to be a vocalist. (I can hold a pretty decent tune, too.) Like a lot of kids, I had really big dreams, but I got lost in the sauce of responsibility, stability and popular opinion. I remember trying to decide on my major before going off to college. My best friends kept saying, “You should major in theater! You’re so talented and creative.” I shot that suggestion right out of the sky. “Theater isn’t going to get me a good job or provide me with stable income. I don’t think I’m good enough for that. I need something else.” Looking back, I’m thinking to myself “Damn! That’s so depressing! I was good enough. I just didn’t believe in myself.” So, I settled. I decided to go to college to be an English teacher. (No shade to teachers! You have the hardest job on Earth.)
Long story short, I sat down with my advisor when I got to ASU, he asked me what my interests were (he could clearly tell I was uninterested in teaching) and then directed me to the Communications department. I majored in Public Relations and graduated with my Comm degree 5 semesters later. Since then, I’ve worked my buns off to build a career around PR and advertising. It’s been pure hell, y’all!
I got my first job 4 months after graduating with my degree. I ended up getting fired 9 months later by my white, male boss, who hated my guts and did his best to destroy my self-confidence. He succeeded. I worked as a server and then bartender. I enjoyed that. I was good at what I was doing and I did it for a good while, until white male privilege struck again. I was back at square one. I didn’t let it stop me. I worked a ton of random jobs until I landed my advertising job 3 years ago.
I’ve been growing as a media buyer in the automotive industry ever since, but it didn’t take me long to figure out that I wasn’t necessarily “happy”. Don’t get me wrong! I like what I do for the most part, BUT I still struggle to get out of bed. It pays decent, but if I’m being honest, it’s not enough. I need something else. I want to wake up every day feeling excited to do what I do. I want my work to not only sustain me financially, but also change the world. I want to create something that helps me and others like me.
After going through a lot of obstacles with my career, I spent about 6 years in depression. I also struggled with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I’ve spent the last 2 years trying to get a grip and undo all the emotional damage I suffered. I’m not out of the woods, but I work every day to overcome it. Depression and anxiety suck and I hate them. However, the experience gave me something that I’m so thankful for today. It gave me the will to dream again. I make a conscious effort every single day to believe in myself. I constantly tell myself “I can do this. I’m a good writer. No! I’m a great writer. My words are going to change the world. My talents are going to be world renowned.”
Sometimes I believe that. Sometimes I don’t. None of that matters though. I’m dreaming again. The first step to chasing a dream is to actually have one to chase. That’s how this blog was born. That’s how a talented little girl in Texas became one of the biggest superstars in the world. That’s how a bi-racial Hawaiian kid became the first black president of the United States. That’s how a kid in Ohio became one of the greatest NBA players of our time. Dreams and the will to chase them.
I was given the opportunity to work as a Glambassador for a women’s clothing brand called Makalia. One of the items that stood out to me was the “Excuse Me While I Dream T-Shirt.” It spoke to the very place that I’m in currently. I’m dreaming. Dreams are scary, especially the big ones. My dreams scare the full shit out of me, but I’m never giving up. I can’t let all this magic go to waste. Neither should you.
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There will always be naysayers. There will always be people around to discourage us from chasing our biggest dreams. You’ll encounter enough people telling you that you aren’t good enough. Don’t be one of those people to yourself. Whatever it is that you think you CAN’T do, just do it. In the meantime, ask the naysayers to excuse you while you dream. Then, hit the ground running.
Until next time, stay dreamy and protect your magic….